If you follow me on twitter you might have noticed that I simply loved this book. If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.

He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Published by Soho Press on January 17th 2017 History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review. Silvera packs a lot of substantive issues into this tale - sexuality, mental illness, grief, friendship, parent-child closeness, disability - and it's all dealt with in a nuanced, thought-provoking way that will stay with readers.I received this ARC from Publisher for free in exchange for an honest review. You feel the pain alongside Wade as Griffin unfairly keeps him out of the circle of trust, even though Wade lost a best friend, too, and even though Wade is steadfastly 'Team Griffin.' It's a complicated thing to stay best friends after being much more, and the story requires readers to have an emotional maturity about relationships or to at least recognize what's healthy and what's unhealthy in a romantic vs. Silvera does a beautiful job exploring the depths of Griffin's burdens, sadness, and insecurities. Yet as a reader, you just want these boys to heal, no matter how destroyed they might feel. Jackson may have been dating Theo, but in Griffin's heart of hearts, he believes - knows - that he and Theo, not Theo and Jackson, were 'endgame.' Once Griffin and Jackson begin commiserating - and jointly shutting others out of their shared pain - it's clear that things are a bit too intense, that they both have secrets about Theo the other won't want to hear. And Griffin doesn't know how he's supposed to grieve Theo when Jackson is in the picture.

Griffin is a thoughtful, fabulously flawed protagonist, one who never stopped loving Theo, his best friend and first love. Moving and memorable, Adam Silvera's second novel is an exploration of loss and love, memory and mourning.

History was all you left me